I did what i had to do yesterday. I did what I should have done 2 years ago. I did what I should have done everyday for the past two years. I did something which I never thought I was able to do. I did it without planning to. I did it without hesitation. I did it, because I know it's the truth.
I have deliberated it enough. I have thought about it enough. I have contemplated it enough. And I have obviously prolonged it enough. To come to this point however, I realized that I was too late.
Knowing that I failed to do something; knowing that I am not capable of doing something; knowing that I am not brave enough to do something; all this is of course a tragic occurrence. But knowing that I am too late, it is something most tormenting and unbearable. It's beyond sorrow. It's beyond grief. It's the paramount of regret.
But I know it was my mistake. And there is nothing I can do to reverse it. I had my chance and I blew it. And now, God is making me feel the torment and the sorrow that I have caused her. And I am willing to go through it to understand the consequences of what I had done before. The consequences of my short-term thinking and lack of positivity topped of with my selfishness and greed. This are my dues that I have to pay for. I thank God for making me understand this. For making me go through this painful, gut-wrenching, heart-breaking, hopeless period for me to feel what I have done unto her. I accept this and I will not run away.
I have made a mistake. I have admitted this to everyone that I know. I have lived in regret day in and day out. And I have been and I am trying to change for the better. I may have blown my chance at eternal bliss. But I pray to God to give me another chance, another life, another hope, another dream. It will never be close to the greatness and beauty of what I have lost. But at least, while I dutifully pay my destructive dues, I know that my lost chance, my one and only, my bliss, is happy.
"If you love something let it go, if it comes back, it's yours"
I guess the saying is untrue.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
untitled
Ketika...
Ku rasakan sudah...
Ada ruang di hatiku...
Yang kau sentuh...
Dan Ketika...
Ku sedari sudah...
Tak selalu indah cinta...
Yang ada...
Mungkin memang....
Ku yang harus mengerti...
Bilaku...
Bukan yang ingin kau miliki...
Salahku bila...
Kaulah yang ada di hati ku...
Adakah ku singgah di hatimu...
Mungkinkah kau rindukan padaku...
Adakah ku sedikit di hatimu...
Bilakah ku mengganggu harimu...
Mungkin kau tak inginkan adaku...
Akankah ku sedikit di hatimu...
Bila memang...
Ku yang harus mengerti...
Mengapa...
Cinta mu tak dapat ku miliki...
Salahkah ku bila...
Kaulah yang ada di hatiku...
Bila cinta...
Kita takkan tercipta...
Ku hanya...
Sekadar ingin untuk mengerti...
Adakah diriku...
Singgah di hatimu...
Dan bilakah kau tahu...
Kaulah yang ada di hati ku...
And its true...
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Sunday, May 25, 2008
a
When we know what we want to say but we can't...
When we know what we should do but we can't...
When we know what we must achieve but we can't...
It matters not because it's too late...
When we regret what we did...
When we shouldn't have done what's done...
When we hate ourselves for what we didn't do...
It matters not because it's too late...
When we want what we can no longer have...
It matters not because it's too late...
When there's nothing left to do because it's too late...
It's just too late...
When we know what we should do but we can't...
When we know what we must achieve but we can't...
It matters not because it's too late...
When we regret what we did...
When we shouldn't have done what's done...
When we hate ourselves for what we didn't do...
It matters not because it's too late...
When we want what we can no longer have...
It matters not because it's too late...
When there's nothing left to do because it's too late...
It's just too late...
Thursday, May 22, 2008
zzzzZZZZzzzz
Haven't written in a long time. Reason is, I just simply don't have anything to write about.
Last night I was supposed to watch Man U win the UEFA Champions League Cup. It was a good start with Ronaldo scoring early. Then, in all my couch glory, with the TV blasting, the fan blowing, the laptop beeping, the lights glaring and the phone ringing, I was dead asleep.
I think I'm just getting a little older.
To you, I'm sorry for not saying good night. That's strike 2. I just hope you have a good trip and get home safe.
But still, nothing to write about. Sometimes I wonder if I even need a blog.
Old PM quit party. Will rejoin if current PM quits. Does old PM want to be current PM again? Isn't it time for him to move on? And why is current PM not doing anything about his reputation? Maybe giving way is the best solution? I nominate my self to be new PM.
Last night I was supposed to watch Man U win the UEFA Champions League Cup. It was a good start with Ronaldo scoring early. Then, in all my couch glory, with the TV blasting, the fan blowing, the laptop beeping, the lights glaring and the phone ringing, I was dead asleep.
I think I'm just getting a little older.
To you, I'm sorry for not saying good night. That's strike 2. I just hope you have a good trip and get home safe.
But still, nothing to write about. Sometimes I wonder if I even need a blog.
Old PM quit party. Will rejoin if current PM quits. Does old PM want to be current PM again? Isn't it time for him to move on? And why is current PM not doing anything about his reputation? Maybe giving way is the best solution? I nominate my self to be new PM.
Politics.. blargh.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
needs and wants
Things I need to do before the end of 2008:
1. Lose 11kgs
2. Learn the stock exchange game.
3. Subscribe to an insurance policy
4. Buy an apartment/house
5. Rent my own place.
Things I want to do before the end of 2008.
1. Lose 17 kgs
2. Invest in mutual funds.
3. Get a new car sound system.
4. Get my own LCD tv (on installment payment)
5. Get an iPhone (only if its officially released in Malaysia - no cracks)
6. If not item 5, get a PDA phone.
7. Pending on item 1, get a new custom made office wardrobe.
8. Pending on item 1, buy new regular clothes.
Lacking something? Yeah. But it's cool.
Oh. Jakarta is still awesome. Maybe slightly awesomer than before. Not much photos this time. Busy having fun.
Need island.... have to find way to island......
1. Lose 11kgs
2. Learn the stock exchange game.
3. Subscribe to an insurance policy
4. Buy an apartment/house
5. Rent my own place.
Things I want to do before the end of 2008.
1. Lose 17 kgs
2. Invest in mutual funds.
3. Get a new car sound system.
4. Get my own LCD tv (on installment payment)
5. Get an iPhone (only if its officially released in Malaysia - no cracks)
6. If not item 5, get a PDA phone.
7. Pending on item 1, get a new custom made office wardrobe.
8. Pending on item 1, buy new regular clothes.
Lacking something? Yeah. But it's cool.
Oh. Jakarta is still awesome. Maybe slightly awesomer than before. Not much photos this time. Busy having fun.
Need island.... have to find way to island......
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
PROJECT COMPLETE!!!
Finally. It's all done. Let's just hope it works. And the hiccups are mitigated. It's all up to the executioners now. And later, I will be laughing at management on the repercussions coming from the public disgust and dissatisfaction. (I'm talking about work).
Yes bro, JAKARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I've been there before. Yes, there not much there. But it's fun. And I wanna get away. Woooohooooooooooo!!!!
Lets just hope I can catch a flight out.
See ya all Next Week!
oh, btw ---> Sudanization = Only porn influenced erection.
Yes bro, JAKARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I've been there before. Yes, there not much there. But it's fun. And I wanna get away. Woooohooooooooooo!!!!
Lets just hope I can catch a flight out.
See ya all Next Week!
oh, btw ---> Sudanization = Only porn influenced erection.
Friday, April 25, 2008
23rd April 2008, 745PM, The Curve.
As I sit here in Starbucks watching all the people go by, I cant help but think to myself how happy people seem to be. But are they really? It's amazing how humans can put up facades of being so happy, satisfied and content with him or herself without others really knowing if what they are feeling is genuine and real. We will never know. We can only imagine what they are truly feeling.
Which brings me to my never ending quest to determine what is the true meaning of happiness. To what extent is the definition of happiness varied when analyzed by different people. And.. (Anwar Ibrahim and Nurul Izzah just walked by - congrats?.. I guess). And will we ever come to one overall complete definition to be agreed upon by all?
Of course the question "what is happiness?" has been beaten down to death. It's a cliche question that can't get anymore cliched. There are so many ways to approach this question; socially, financially, emotionally and, of course, spiritually. No matter what the approach, I believe that the quest for the answer to this question will never come to an end for as long as humans exist.
Which brings me back to the purpose of my thought for today. It is not the definition or the answer to this question that I am talking about. But rather the ability humans to simply be happy. The ability to set aside all our worries, all our pain, all our sorrow, and all our fear, to enjoy, even the briefest of moments, to simply enjoy the moment of being alive, there and then in that particular point in time and space. Be it with a significant other, friends, family or alone, the ability of the human mind to compartmentalize thoughts and memory to provision a path for a simple joyous feeling to overwhelm the mind, body and soul, will truly remain an awesome, fantastic and absolutely mind-boggling mystery that us humans, the creatures that are actually subjected to this phenomenon, will never be able to solve.
God is truly great.
Which brings me to my never ending quest to determine what is the true meaning of happiness. To what extent is the definition of happiness varied when analyzed by different people. And.. (Anwar Ibrahim and Nurul Izzah just walked by - congrats?.. I guess). And will we ever come to one overall complete definition to be agreed upon by all?
Of course the question "what is happiness?" has been beaten down to death. It's a cliche question that can't get anymore cliched. There are so many ways to approach this question; socially, financially, emotionally and, of course, spiritually. No matter what the approach, I believe that the quest for the answer to this question will never come to an end for as long as humans exist.
Which brings me back to the purpose of my thought for today. It is not the definition or the answer to this question that I am talking about. But rather the ability humans to simply be happy. The ability to set aside all our worries, all our pain, all our sorrow, and all our fear, to enjoy, even the briefest of moments, to simply enjoy the moment of being alive, there and then in that particular point in time and space. Be it with a significant other, friends, family or alone, the ability of the human mind to compartmentalize thoughts and memory to provision a path for a simple joyous feeling to overwhelm the mind, body and soul, will truly remain an awesome, fantastic and absolutely mind-boggling mystery that us humans, the creatures that are actually subjected to this phenomenon, will never be able to solve.
God is truly great.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Haven't written in a while. Don't know what to write about really. Nothing much is going on.
Birthday came and went. No big deal there.
Political scene is still the same, and its slowly creeping up my annoyance ladder. Some people have actually moved on from the whole election drama and got on with life. Thank God for them. But most are still harping on the outcome of the elections. Still wondering why things are the way they are. Still trying to get others to talk about it. And still wanting more drama, as if the one we had wasn't sufficient to fulfill their needs.
So the ruling party lost more seats than usual. So what? Isn't that an acceptable outcome of an election in a so-called democratic country? What is the big deal? Why can't most of us deal with it and move on with our lives. It's not like we're undergoing a massive change or anything. The same people (well, almost) are still at the helm. Everything is still the same. One of the reader views on a major local daily yesterday criticized all this talk about resignation and what not. And that particular view was, if the ruling party had done so bad, why call for one person's resignation? The whole damn crew should resign and take responsibility for it, since it's such a big deal to them. I couldn't agree more with this.
I'm not gonna talk politics. It's not my thing. Well, at least not at the moment. I hate politics. I've seen it take the best out of people and give nothing back but sorrow. I've seen it lie. I've seen it cheat. I've seen it destroy one man, until there is really nothing left to live for.
Sure, I have my preference. And I have my reasons to have that preference. But I only think of it come election time. Once that is done, we're all the same. As long as the country remains stable, we shouldn't really worry, dwell or even talk about politics until the next election comes around. It's a waste of time. And with all the deceit, corruption and lies that surround it, politics will never end.
On a personal note, I am feeling like I am reaching a major turning point in my life. I don't exactly know what it is or which direction it will take me. But I know I am slowly changing. Deep inside it is as if I am reverting to my original self, returning to a person whom I was once before. I dont exactly know to what extent or in what manner. But I feel it. It feels like in the recent period of time, probably a year or two, I have not been myself. And now, that person is slowly seeping into my veins and returning me to the person I once was.
I don't really know if this so-called change is good or bad. It might be neither. But I hope it brings me benefit in one way or another. I guess only time can tell...
How far are we from the truth...
When truth seems far from being clear...
How clear are we on our purpose...
When our purpose recludes our eyes and ears...
How sure are we of our needs...
When our needs slowly dissapear...
How lost are we in this life...
When life seems to be out of steer...
How much of facts can we really tell....
When telling seems to be the hardest part...
How do we know we've past the end...
When our only chance is to go back to the start...
I hope everyone has a good weekend. Thanks for all the birthday wishes.
Birthday came and went. No big deal there.
Political scene is still the same, and its slowly creeping up my annoyance ladder. Some people have actually moved on from the whole election drama and got on with life. Thank God for them. But most are still harping on the outcome of the elections. Still wondering why things are the way they are. Still trying to get others to talk about it. And still wanting more drama, as if the one we had wasn't sufficient to fulfill their needs.
So the ruling party lost more seats than usual. So what? Isn't that an acceptable outcome of an election in a so-called democratic country? What is the big deal? Why can't most of us deal with it and move on with our lives. It's not like we're undergoing a massive change or anything. The same people (well, almost) are still at the helm. Everything is still the same. One of the reader views on a major local daily yesterday criticized all this talk about resignation and what not. And that particular view was, if the ruling party had done so bad, why call for one person's resignation? The whole damn crew should resign and take responsibility for it, since it's such a big deal to them. I couldn't agree more with this.
I'm not gonna talk politics. It's not my thing. Well, at least not at the moment. I hate politics. I've seen it take the best out of people and give nothing back but sorrow. I've seen it lie. I've seen it cheat. I've seen it destroy one man, until there is really nothing left to live for.
Sure, I have my preference. And I have my reasons to have that preference. But I only think of it come election time. Once that is done, we're all the same. As long as the country remains stable, we shouldn't really worry, dwell or even talk about politics until the next election comes around. It's a waste of time. And with all the deceit, corruption and lies that surround it, politics will never end.
On a personal note, I am feeling like I am reaching a major turning point in my life. I don't exactly know what it is or which direction it will take me. But I know I am slowly changing. Deep inside it is as if I am reverting to my original self, returning to a person whom I was once before. I dont exactly know to what extent or in what manner. But I feel it. It feels like in the recent period of time, probably a year or two, I have not been myself. And now, that person is slowly seeping into my veins and returning me to the person I once was.
I don't really know if this so-called change is good or bad. It might be neither. But I hope it brings me benefit in one way or another. I guess only time can tell...
How far are we from the truth...
When truth seems far from being clear...
How clear are we on our purpose...
When our purpose recludes our eyes and ears...
How sure are we of our needs...
When our needs slowly dissapear...
How lost are we in this life...
When life seems to be out of steer...
How much of facts can we really tell....
When telling seems to be the hardest part...
How do we know we've past the end...
When our only chance is to go back to the start...
I hope everyone has a good weekend. Thanks for all the birthday wishes.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Why McLaren, Why?
Wow. The later turned out to be almost a week later.
Work
What a week it's been. Things seem to have really piled up while I was away. And some almost reached critical stage. I guess I got back at the right time. If it wasn't for trusted colleagues, work would have tumbled and crashed all over the place. Thanks guys and girls. But whatever it is, work is still work and there's still a lot to do for the new orders that were announced.
Personal Life
No comment.
Life in general
Good.
I faced killer conversations recently.
"are you not seeing anyone now?"
It was a yes or no question. Shit. I hate yes or no questions.
"no"
"since when?"
"since January"
Just a few phrases later, the conversation ended.
Another one with a different person started the same way, and continued further.
"...why?"
Damn. Why is it that as soon as I'm on a roll with the yes or no questions POW! I'm hit with an open one.
"i don't know. i guess i'm done with all that. i think i know what i want now."
"what is it that you want?"
"i know who my future lies with."
"so what are you going to do about it"
"there's nothing that i can do"
"so you're screwed"
"tight. And topped up with sealant"
Another one. With a more elderly person. In malay.
"haa la... akak ni dah tak tahan dah dengan perangai anak sedara akak tu. gedik sini sana. kepit manjang. so nak selamatkan diorang, family akak pun kawinkanla. senang. tapi masalahnya dua dua tu budak lagi. keje pun tak seberapa."
"nak buat camana kak. dah jodoh"
"hmmm ye la. banyak la ko boleh cakap. yang tak sepatutnya kahwin, nak cepat cepat. gopoh. tapi yang sepatutnya kawin. yang stable macam ko tu... ntah apa la ditunggunye".
....
burn.
Work
What a week it's been. Things seem to have really piled up while I was away. And some almost reached critical stage. I guess I got back at the right time. If it wasn't for trusted colleagues, work would have tumbled and crashed all over the place. Thanks guys and girls. But whatever it is, work is still work and there's still a lot to do for the new orders that were announced.
Personal Life
No comment.
Life in general
Good.
I faced killer conversations recently.
"are you not seeing anyone now?"
It was a yes or no question. Shit. I hate yes or no questions.
"no"
"since when?"
"since January"
Just a few phrases later, the conversation ended.
Another one with a different person started the same way, and continued further.
"...why?"
Damn. Why is it that as soon as I'm on a roll with the yes or no questions POW! I'm hit with an open one.
"i don't know. i guess i'm done with all that. i think i know what i want now."
"what is it that you want?"
"i know who my future lies with."
"so what are you going to do about it"
"there's nothing that i can do"
"so you're screwed"
"tight. And topped up with sealant"
Another one. With a more elderly person. In malay.
"haa la... akak ni dah tak tahan dah dengan perangai anak sedara akak tu. gedik sini sana. kepit manjang. so nak selamatkan diorang, family akak pun kawinkanla. senang. tapi masalahnya dua dua tu budak lagi. keje pun tak seberapa."
"nak buat camana kak. dah jodoh"
"hmmm ye la. banyak la ko boleh cakap. yang tak sepatutnya kahwin, nak cepat cepat. gopoh. tapi yang sepatutnya kawin. yang stable macam ko tu... ntah apa la ditunggunye".
....
burn.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Good to be home
I'm back! What an amazing week it's been. Will update more. Check out photos on facebook.
Now it's time for some Formula 1.
Later
Now it's time for some Formula 1.
Later
Thursday, March 27, 2008
it's you...
Kasihku usia sudah cintamu
Cinta yang kudamba selama ini
Mengapa ku biarkan terjadi
Rasanya ku tak percaya semua ini
Aku masih menyayangimu
Ku tak ingin semua berlalu
Bila mungkin engkau kembali
Kembalilah kembali padaku
Seperti waktu yang dulu
Bermanja kita berdua
Hanya engkau yang mengerti
Tentang aku
Ku rasa hari-hari sepiku
Tanpa canda tawa bersamamu
Ku tahu ini semua salah ku
Aku tak mahu tanpamu
Ku rasa hari-hari sepi tanpamu
Cinta yang kudamba selama ini
Mengapa ku biarkan terjadi
Rasanya ku tak percaya semua ini
Aku masih menyayangimu
Ku tak ingin semua berlalu
Bila mungkin engkau kembali
Kembalilah kembali padaku
Seperti waktu yang dulu
Bermanja kita berdua
Hanya engkau yang mengerti
Tentang aku
Ku rasa hari-hari sepiku
Tanpa canda tawa bersamamu
Ku tahu ini semua salah ku
Aku tak mahu tanpamu
Ku rasa hari-hari sepi tanpamu
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Week
1.18am... tired... work not done... haven't packed... don't know what to bring...
God please make them give me the Lounge Pass tomorrow...
And may You strike down whoever took my rm18 japanese cigarette and lighter gift pack which i accidentally left on the table at Samantha's. Damn you whoever you are. I spent rm18 just to get that lighter with portable ashtray. At least have the decency to leave it with the manager or bartender!!! I drove all the way back just to find out that it's gone.. so if i ever find out who you are, you're cat food!
..... bitch.
I'm gonna be away for a while. So you all stay cool. Except for you, you thief. You son/daughter of a bitch coward who picks up stuff people left behind without the slightest decency or civility to do what's right.... damn you to hell.
I miss you when I'm not supposed to.
I hope all is well going, at and coming from down there.
God please make them give me the Lounge Pass tomorrow...
And may You strike down whoever took my rm18 japanese cigarette and lighter gift pack which i accidentally left on the table at Samantha's. Damn you whoever you are. I spent rm18 just to get that lighter with portable ashtray. At least have the decency to leave it with the manager or bartender!!! I drove all the way back just to find out that it's gone.. so if i ever find out who you are, you're cat food!
..... bitch.
I'm gonna be away for a while. So you all stay cool. Except for you, you thief. You son/daughter of a bitch coward who picks up stuff people left behind without the slightest decency or civility to do what's right.... damn you to hell.
I miss you when I'm not supposed to.
I hope all is well going, at and coming from down there.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Weekender
Well there goes the week and the end of my one-week stint as Acting STSE Interiors. It was fun I must say, and thankfully nothing too major occured during that one week span, making the whole period of me being at the helm of this beloved section, enjoyable to say the least.
I am in love with my job. And I'm not trying to comfort myself. Really I do. Sure, the technical side is all meticulous and detailed and precise etc. But the whole experience of being in charge of the sole section of the aircraft that leaves the passenger with the final impression of the airline is actually fulfilling, and quite overwhelming, in a positive manner.
So, I think my aim to actually gain as much experience as I can in this field is something that is good for me and hopefully will land me in the position I really desire to be, one day, in this beloved company of mine. Although the management has a lot to make up for, I'm sure, one day, everything will fall into place and the whole mechanism of running this airline, at least from this aspect, will be on par with the rest of the 5-star airlines today. I am planning to ensure this will happen, and it requires nothing less then being on top of the arena; knowing as much of every inch of the field of aircraft interiors as realistically possible. (trust me, at the rate technology evolves, it's almost impossible). I love my airline, and nothing anyone can say about anything will change my mind about it. I may leave the job, but only in hopes of returning to my pride and joy as a more efficient, proficient and knowledgable leader. This I promise myself. Because, one day, I want to see my airline be ranked number 1 in every possible category for a commercial transport enterprise. Not so much because it represents my country, but rather because I grew up with this airline and, without any exaggeration whatsoever, it makes me feel at home as soon as I step on board at any foreign airport that I have been in. That's why, my company is so special to me.
Say what you want about shortfalls and weaknesses of our flagship carrier. The price, the service (both on and off ground), the meals, the seats, the punctuality etc. Sure, it may seem far below par or does not meet expectations or does not come close to making it worth your ticket price. But coming from the aviation industry, I can assure you, that all the negative things being said about my company is common within any airline serving the world today, including the other 5-star airlines. People say our neighbouring airline is 10 times better. Sure, you may be right. But did you ever actually stop and think about why you feel so? Did it ever occur to you that you feel so harshly towards your airline because it is your airline? Because it is your flagship carrier, any weakness will be amplified numerous times in your feelings and expressions because of the dissapointment and shame that it impedes onto you. It is exactly that, because if these weaknesses and voids were found in other foreign airlines, the complaints won't be as strong and harsh because you don't really care because it doesnt cost you anything in terms of pride and dignity. It's someone else's airline. But if it was your own, you would be more worried or offended more than the others.
So you see, it's not really the fact that my company is bad. But rather, its the perception that our flagship carrier should be perfect. There should be minimal weaknesses, or better yet, none at all. Because it represents our country. Our pride. Our identity.
Be that as it may, I am not denying that there is a lot to ask for from our current level of service. I am staff and I don't deny it. But hey, we're working on every inch of it. Trust me, we really are. Of course I will not disclose any of the work being done to address these issues, as clearly it is not my prerogative to do so. But things are being done and is being forcibly and strenuously being put into action. With the current leadership, everyone is pulling their weight to ensure that our service remains on top, in our strive to, one day, become the number 1 airline in the world. However, I won't put any optism on this. Because it doesn't require any. It WILL happen.
And why are am I so adamant about this? The answer is very simple. Because of money or rather, lack thereof. No I'm not complaining. I am saying that I am not making as much money as I am supposed to be. And of course, being the person that I am, this matters greatly. But for some reason, the realization, which has beseiged me for quite a while now, has rendered no negative effect on me. Instead, I am content. I love my job. And I don't mind putting the long hours and sometimes even weekends, just to get things done. It's just simply because I want everything to be correct so that I give my best product to this airline. And being in interiors, which pretty much is the only section within engineering that has most effect on the passenger during their travel, I find it the most fulfilling. (of course, there are more, much more critical areas within engineering that ensures the continuity and perfection of the day-to-day operation of the airline, but the passengers won't feel or see the same siginficance of this compared to that of the cabin, as they sit and wait until they reach their next destination)
Bottom line is, I love what I am doing and I will ensure that I give my very best, so that my pride and joy can continue to fly and serve our loyal passengers, and, most importantly, continue to be recognized as a 5-star, global airline leader, in our strive, to one day become the number one airline in the world.
Okay enough serious stuff,
I am feeling a little dizzy right now. Facebook is boring. The net is boring. No one is online at 4am. And of course, my email account is full of spam. So, to entertain myself, I was thinking of accepting and setting up all the invites I got on facebook (290). By the time I reached 287 I thought "screw this" and was trying to find a delete all the invites, but to no avail. It's amazing how people can keep the invite count down to zero. Their facebooks must be full of useless, mindless and pretty much cluttering crap. Although, it did keep me entertained for the past 15 minutes (while installing the software and inviting random ppl to install it - of course, by the time I realized how gay and boring this was, I was stressfully looking for the 'Clear All' button.
On a more trivial note, I got a plant today. Don't ask from where, from who or for how much. I just got it, and I think it's pretty cool. It's sort of a not-so-dense plant with long stalks but really small leaves. It's kinda big but I think it looks really cool in my cube. Sort of gives me a slight zen feeling, like how it was when I had all those awesome table-top mini fountains back in college. I wonder if the office allowed me to install those fountains in my cube... hmm, interesting.
So that pretty much wraps up my rambling about almost nothing. It's formula 1 weekend here in KL, and I really hope I get some last minute tix. I wonder if my sister was serious in her offer the other day. But then again, it might have been a "oh, by the way.." kinda thing and she totally forgot about it. Its cool. Watching it on the tube at home or at Chillis is way more comfortable and fulfilling anyway. (even the food is cheaper than the crap they sell at the circuit!)
Oh, and today I went to a wedding of a sort of a cousing of mine. And a lot of my extended family members were there. It sure was nice to meet up with them again and mingle. I can tick with them a little bit. Even though we meet almost zilch times a year. I met a lot of old but yet familiar faces. And even though I fumbled with their names, it gave me a sense of belonging and togetherness. The wedding was simple and nice. (Congratulations Mas - well done). I left the place with a sense of .... I don't know. Happy is not really the correct word. I think satisfied and relieved is more like it. While driving home, I couldn't help but think of planning some sort of a reunion kind of thing where I get in touch with all of them and we go for a 2 nite stay in some resort and just simply catch-up, and get to know each other better. I dont know if its a good idea, or even if its a feasible idea, but I think I'll put more thought into it. I mean, it's family. And in my life, they are almost non- existent. And I think, in so many ways, that's just wrong. Regardless of whose fault it is. If our elders weren't good at staying close, there's no reason we should do the same right? Right. So more thought it is then.
I hope it's really because of that (family), and not because I miss the sense of belonging...
I am in love with my job. And I'm not trying to comfort myself. Really I do. Sure, the technical side is all meticulous and detailed and precise etc. But the whole experience of being in charge of the sole section of the aircraft that leaves the passenger with the final impression of the airline is actually fulfilling, and quite overwhelming, in a positive manner.
So, I think my aim to actually gain as much experience as I can in this field is something that is good for me and hopefully will land me in the position I really desire to be, one day, in this beloved company of mine. Although the management has a lot to make up for, I'm sure, one day, everything will fall into place and the whole mechanism of running this airline, at least from this aspect, will be on par with the rest of the 5-star airlines today. I am planning to ensure this will happen, and it requires nothing less then being on top of the arena; knowing as much of every inch of the field of aircraft interiors as realistically possible. (trust me, at the rate technology evolves, it's almost impossible). I love my airline, and nothing anyone can say about anything will change my mind about it. I may leave the job, but only in hopes of returning to my pride and joy as a more efficient, proficient and knowledgable leader. This I promise myself. Because, one day, I want to see my airline be ranked number 1 in every possible category for a commercial transport enterprise. Not so much because it represents my country, but rather because I grew up with this airline and, without any exaggeration whatsoever, it makes me feel at home as soon as I step on board at any foreign airport that I have been in. That's why, my company is so special to me.
Say what you want about shortfalls and weaknesses of our flagship carrier. The price, the service (both on and off ground), the meals, the seats, the punctuality etc. Sure, it may seem far below par or does not meet expectations or does not come close to making it worth your ticket price. But coming from the aviation industry, I can assure you, that all the negative things being said about my company is common within any airline serving the world today, including the other 5-star airlines. People say our neighbouring airline is 10 times better. Sure, you may be right. But did you ever actually stop and think about why you feel so? Did it ever occur to you that you feel so harshly towards your airline because it is your airline? Because it is your flagship carrier, any weakness will be amplified numerous times in your feelings and expressions because of the dissapointment and shame that it impedes onto you. It is exactly that, because if these weaknesses and voids were found in other foreign airlines, the complaints won't be as strong and harsh because you don't really care because it doesnt cost you anything in terms of pride and dignity. It's someone else's airline. But if it was your own, you would be more worried or offended more than the others.
So you see, it's not really the fact that my company is bad. But rather, its the perception that our flagship carrier should be perfect. There should be minimal weaknesses, or better yet, none at all. Because it represents our country. Our pride. Our identity.
Be that as it may, I am not denying that there is a lot to ask for from our current level of service. I am staff and I don't deny it. But hey, we're working on every inch of it. Trust me, we really are. Of course I will not disclose any of the work being done to address these issues, as clearly it is not my prerogative to do so. But things are being done and is being forcibly and strenuously being put into action. With the current leadership, everyone is pulling their weight to ensure that our service remains on top, in our strive to, one day, become the number 1 airline in the world. However, I won't put any optism on this. Because it doesn't require any. It WILL happen.
And why are am I so adamant about this? The answer is very simple. Because of money or rather, lack thereof. No I'm not complaining. I am saying that I am not making as much money as I am supposed to be. And of course, being the person that I am, this matters greatly. But for some reason, the realization, which has beseiged me for quite a while now, has rendered no negative effect on me. Instead, I am content. I love my job. And I don't mind putting the long hours and sometimes even weekends, just to get things done. It's just simply because I want everything to be correct so that I give my best product to this airline. And being in interiors, which pretty much is the only section within engineering that has most effect on the passenger during their travel, I find it the most fulfilling. (of course, there are more, much more critical areas within engineering that ensures the continuity and perfection of the day-to-day operation of the airline, but the passengers won't feel or see the same siginficance of this compared to that of the cabin, as they sit and wait until they reach their next destination)
Bottom line is, I love what I am doing and I will ensure that I give my very best, so that my pride and joy can continue to fly and serve our loyal passengers, and, most importantly, continue to be recognized as a 5-star, global airline leader, in our strive, to one day become the number one airline in the world.
Okay enough serious stuff,
I am feeling a little dizzy right now. Facebook is boring. The net is boring. No one is online at 4am. And of course, my email account is full of spam. So, to entertain myself, I was thinking of accepting and setting up all the invites I got on facebook (290). By the time I reached 287 I thought "screw this" and was trying to find a delete all the invites, but to no avail. It's amazing how people can keep the invite count down to zero. Their facebooks must be full of useless, mindless and pretty much cluttering crap. Although, it did keep me entertained for the past 15 minutes (while installing the software and inviting random ppl to install it - of course, by the time I realized how gay and boring this was, I was stressfully looking for the 'Clear All' button.
On a more trivial note, I got a plant today. Don't ask from where, from who or for how much. I just got it, and I think it's pretty cool. It's sort of a not-so-dense plant with long stalks but really small leaves. It's kinda big but I think it looks really cool in my cube. Sort of gives me a slight zen feeling, like how it was when I had all those awesome table-top mini fountains back in college. I wonder if the office allowed me to install those fountains in my cube... hmm, interesting.
So that pretty much wraps up my rambling about almost nothing. It's formula 1 weekend here in KL, and I really hope I get some last minute tix. I wonder if my sister was serious in her offer the other day. But then again, it might have been a "oh, by the way.." kinda thing and she totally forgot about it. Its cool. Watching it on the tube at home or at Chillis is way more comfortable and fulfilling anyway. (even the food is cheaper than the crap they sell at the circuit!)
Oh, and today I went to a wedding of a sort of a cousing of mine. And a lot of my extended family members were there. It sure was nice to meet up with them again and mingle. I can tick with them a little bit. Even though we meet almost zilch times a year. I met a lot of old but yet familiar faces. And even though I fumbled with their names, it gave me a sense of belonging and togetherness. The wedding was simple and nice. (Congratulations Mas - well done). I left the place with a sense of .... I don't know. Happy is not really the correct word. I think satisfied and relieved is more like it. While driving home, I couldn't help but think of planning some sort of a reunion kind of thing where I get in touch with all of them and we go for a 2 nite stay in some resort and just simply catch-up, and get to know each other better. I dont know if its a good idea, or even if its a feasible idea, but I think I'll put more thought into it. I mean, it's family. And in my life, they are almost non- existent. And I think, in so many ways, that's just wrong. Regardless of whose fault it is. If our elders weren't good at staying close, there's no reason we should do the same right? Right. So more thought it is then.
I hope it's really because of that (family), and not because I miss the sense of belonging...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
When the future becomes now...
Isn't it ironic, when the least expected happens...
Isn't it amazing, when the impossible becomes real...
Isn't it fantastic, when what was lost, returns...
Isn't it surreal, when fate changes what had seemed sealed...
Isn't it a pity, when lives are lost unlived...
Isn't it a crime, to lose what was rightfully possessed...
Isn't it a sin, when mistakes only lead to regret...
Isn't it a shame, when it's too late to deny the end...
Isn't it exciting, when the end brings a new beginning...
Isn't it sensational, to learn what should not be known...
Isn't it funny, when the false is perceived as real...
Isn't it confusing, when symphony drowns in the silence around...
Isn't it mortifying, when the denied is realized...
Isn't it piercing, when the irreversible is done...
Isn't it flawed, when destiny becomes undesired reality...
Isn't it perplexing, when denial disappears and reality stuns...
Isn't it awkward, when the future becomes now...
Isn't it weird, when now becomes the past...
Isn't it strange, when the forgotten is being remembered...
Isn't it peculiar, when what was done mattered none at last...
It is, isn't it?
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Top 20 Billionaires (Current)
1. William Gates III
2. Warren Buffett
3. Carlos Slim Helú
4. Ingvar Kamprad
5. Lakshmi Mittal
6. Sheldon Adelson
7. Bernard Arnault
8. Amancio Ortega
9. Li Ka-shing
10. David Thomson
11. Larry Ellison
12. Liliane Bettencourt
13. Prince Alwaleed
14. Mukesh Ambani
15. Karl Albrecht
16. Roman Abramovich
17. Stefan Persson
18. Anil Ambani
19. Paul Allen
20. Theo Albrecht
Top 40 richest Malaysians (Current - in-order)
Robert Kuok
Ananda Krishnan
Lim Goh Tong
Lee Shin Cheng
Teh Hong Piow
Quek Leng Chan
Syed Mokhtar AlBukhary
Yeoh Tiong Lay
Tiong Hiew King
William Cheng
Azman Hashim
Ong Beng Seng
Yaw Teck Seng
Vincent Tan
Yaw Chee Ming
Vinod Sekhar
Jeffrey Cheah
Chong Chook Yew
Lim Kok Thay
Lim Wee Chai
Kua Sian Kooi
Tiah Thee Kian
Mustapha Kamal Abu Bakar
Anthony Fernandes
Seri Eleena Raja Azlan Shah
Lee Oi Hian
Lee Hau Hian
Mokhzani Mahathir
G Gnanalingam
Abdul Hamed Sepawi
Kamarudin Meranun
Lau Cho Kun
Ong Leong Huat
Lin Yun Ling
Liew Kee Sin
Lee Swee Eng
Ahmayuddin bin Ahmad
Hamdan Mohamad
Khoo Kay Peng
Kasi K L Palaniappan
I don't know if any in the above list are engineers or former engineers. But I sure as hell know this; One day, I will be in Top 40 Richest Malaysians. Rest assured, I will be there. (by God's Mighty Will, of course)
A lot needs to be done, and it's a long way to go... but I'll get there.
1. William Gates III
2. Warren Buffett
3. Carlos Slim Helú
4. Ingvar Kamprad
5. Lakshmi Mittal
6. Sheldon Adelson
7. Bernard Arnault
8. Amancio Ortega
9. Li Ka-shing
10. David Thomson
11. Larry Ellison
12. Liliane Bettencourt
13. Prince Alwaleed
14. Mukesh Ambani
15. Karl Albrecht
16. Roman Abramovich
17. Stefan Persson
18. Anil Ambani
19. Paul Allen
20. Theo Albrecht
Top 40 richest Malaysians (Current - in-order)
Robert Kuok
Ananda Krishnan
Lim Goh Tong
Lee Shin Cheng
Teh Hong Piow
Quek Leng Chan
Syed Mokhtar AlBukhary
Yeoh Tiong Lay
Tiong Hiew King
William Cheng
Azman Hashim
Ong Beng Seng
Yaw Teck Seng
Vincent Tan
Yaw Chee Ming
Vinod Sekhar
Jeffrey Cheah
Chong Chook Yew
Lim Kok Thay
Lim Wee Chai
Kua Sian Kooi
Tiah Thee Kian
Mustapha Kamal Abu Bakar
Anthony Fernandes
Seri Eleena Raja Azlan Shah
Lee Oi Hian
Lee Hau Hian
Mokhzani Mahathir
G Gnanalingam
Abdul Hamed Sepawi
Kamarudin Meranun
Lau Cho Kun
Ong Leong Huat
Lin Yun Ling
Liew Kee Sin
Lee Swee Eng
Ahmayuddin bin Ahmad
Hamdan Mohamad
Khoo Kay Peng
Kasi K L Palaniappan
I don't know if any in the above list are engineers or former engineers. But I sure as hell know this; One day, I will be in Top 40 Richest Malaysians. Rest assured, I will be there. (by God's Mighty Will, of course)
A lot needs to be done, and it's a long way to go... but I'll get there.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Masih tertinggal bayanganmu...
Yang telah membekas di relung hatiku...
Hujan tanpa henti seolah pertanda...
Cinta tak di sini lagi...
Kau tlah berpaling...
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri...
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi...
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh...
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Masih adakah cahaya rindumu...
Yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu...
Aku takkan bisa menghapus dirimu..
Meski ku lihat kini...
Kau di seberang sana...
Andai akhirnya...
Kau tak juga kembali...
Aku tetap sendiri...
Menjaga hati...
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri...
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi...
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh...
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Yang telah membekas di relung hatiku...
Hujan tanpa henti seolah pertanda...
Cinta tak di sini lagi...
Kau tlah berpaling...
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri...Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi...
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh...
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Masih adakah cahaya rindumu...
Yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu...
Aku takkan bisa menghapus dirimu..
Meski ku lihat kini...
Kau di seberang sana...
Andai akhirnya...
Kau tak juga kembali...
Aku tetap sendiri...
Menjaga hati...
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri...
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi...
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh...
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Friday, March 14, 2008
Long day..
A checklist for everything that happened today.
Personal life? None
Work load? Slightly better, but still fucked up.
Having to do stuff you don't really want to but you have to cuz its a family friend and you owe them? Check.
My boss and overall management of my division? Fucked Up
Car making squeaks when braking? i.e. brake pads out. Check.
Something to look forward to at work? None.
Hoping that some day a rich airline calls me up and buys me off? Yes. Silently.
Sick and tired of looking a certain faces you just feel like puking your shit out and shitting your vomit? Check.
Ipod? Havent played in three days.
Food? Breakfast Lunch and Dinner. Might damage my 1 kg a week decline.
Boredom Level? High
But,
at the end of this dreadful day, I saw this on gmail...
" Muka Awak HodohMuka saya pun hodoh tapi saya kaya Jangan jadi hodoh dan miskinwww.kayarabak.com "
....priceless.
Personal life? None
Work load? Slightly better, but still fucked up.
Having to do stuff you don't really want to but you have to cuz its a family friend and you owe them? Check.
My boss and overall management of my division? Fucked Up
Car making squeaks when braking? i.e. brake pads out. Check.
Something to look forward to at work? None.
Hoping that some day a rich airline calls me up and buys me off? Yes. Silently.
Sick and tired of looking a certain faces you just feel like puking your shit out and shitting your vomit? Check.
Ipod? Havent played in three days.
Food? Breakfast Lunch and Dinner. Might damage my 1 kg a week decline.
Boredom Level? High
But,
at the end of this dreadful day, I saw this on gmail...
" Muka Awak HodohMuka saya pun hodoh tapi saya kaya Jangan jadi hodoh dan miskinwww.kayarabak.com "
....priceless.
February 7th 2005, 2.57PM. Akerman Hall, UofM Twin Cities. Working hard on final project: SAE-Boeing Heavy Lift aircraft. (Crashed to 7 pieces after 10 seconds airborne)
... good times.
Friday, March 7, 2008
maybank...
WelcometomaybankcustomercarethisisZurahowcanIhelpedyou?
Hi Zura, I'm calling you from your branch in Damansara Utama and I have a problem with one of your cash deposit machines.
Sure Sir I can help you. Can I get your name?
Hazim Ismail.
Encik Hazim Can I get your account number
1641258045
Encik Hazim can I get your mailing address for verification
660603 Fajaria Condo Jalan Pantai Baru Bangsar KL.
Postcode pls Encik Hazim
59200
Ok Encik Hazim, can I have your IC number?
8204170****5
Thanks Encik Hazim. And can I have your contact number?
012306***9
Ok and one more verification question En. Hazim, what is your car nickname?
Michelle
Ok Thanks for the verification En Hazim.
You sure you don't need to verify any further? I can give you my shirt size as well
No thank you Encik Hazim. Now what seems to be the problem?
Well like I said some time ago, I was trying to deposit some cash into my account when the machine died on me, with the cash in the machine. Then when I went to check the balance there the money wasnt debited.
Ok How much did you try and deposit Encik Hazim?
500 ringgit
Ok Please hold Encik Hazim.
-2 minutes-
Encik Hazim, did you say you were depositing 500 ringgit?
Yes
Please hold
-1 minute-
Was that all RM50 notes Encik Hazim?
Yes
Ok hold on ya
-2 minutes-
Encik Hazim do you happen to note which CDM machine was involved?
Number 1.
Please hold ya Encik Hazim
-3 minutes-
OK Encik Hazim, I have reported your case to our control center and they will inform the technician and security when they open the machine. They will then tally the transaction and once they find the extra money in the machine they will credit it back to your account and you will be notified.
Ok. So what time are they coming?
Oh Sorry Encik Hazim, this will take 3 to 7 working days.
You're kidding
Encik Hazim, this will take 3 to 7 working days.
So what am I suppose to eat for the next 3 days at least?
I'm sorry Encik Hazim thats all I can do for you now.
Can you get the technician to come out here now?
I'm sorry Encik Hazim but we cant do that. This involves security and the technician so they can only help when the machine is serviced.
So are you telling me that this machine will be out of service for the next 3 to 7 days??
No, the technician will probably come by tomorrow or day after.
So It could be as soon as tomorrow la?
Encik Hazim, this will take 3 to 7 days.
I know you said that already. But if the machine is going to be opened tomorrow I can get my cash then right?
Sorry En. Hazim, but these cases take 3 to 7 days.
And there is no compensation?
No Sir. Sorry
Fuckup Gila
Sorry Sir?
I said thats a bummer. So what am I supposed to do now?
Im sorry Encik Hazim, but theres nothing anyone can do but wait the 3 to 7 days
Yeah yeah I know. Stupid system thats all I can say. Well oklah. Nothing else to do right? All because your stupid machine died on me right?
Is there anything else I can do for you Encik Hazim?
Obviously not right?
Thank you for calling Mayb...(HUNG UP)
Fuckin Maybank I swear to God. Although they're a one stop solution for a lot of stuff. This ices the cake and makes the whole thing rotten. My money better turn up or I'll find Zura and shove her head up her ass.
Here goes a boring money-less weekend....
Hi Zura, I'm calling you from your branch in Damansara Utama and I have a problem with one of your cash deposit machines.
Sure Sir I can help you. Can I get your name?
Hazim Ismail.
Encik Hazim Can I get your account number
1641258045
Encik Hazim can I get your mailing address for verification
660603 Fajaria Condo Jalan Pantai Baru Bangsar KL.
Postcode pls Encik Hazim
59200
Ok Encik Hazim, can I have your IC number?
8204170****5
Thanks Encik Hazim. And can I have your contact number?
012306***9
Ok and one more verification question En. Hazim, what is your car nickname?
Michelle
Ok Thanks for the verification En Hazim.
You sure you don't need to verify any further? I can give you my shirt size as well
No thank you Encik Hazim. Now what seems to be the problem?
Well like I said some time ago, I was trying to deposit some cash into my account when the machine died on me, with the cash in the machine. Then when I went to check the balance there the money wasnt debited.
Ok How much did you try and deposit Encik Hazim?
500 ringgit
Ok Please hold Encik Hazim.
-2 minutes-
Encik Hazim, did you say you were depositing 500 ringgit?
Yes
Please hold
-1 minute-
Was that all RM50 notes Encik Hazim?
Yes
Ok hold on ya
-2 minutes-
Encik Hazim do you happen to note which CDM machine was involved?
Number 1.
Please hold ya Encik Hazim
-3 minutes-
OK Encik Hazim, I have reported your case to our control center and they will inform the technician and security when they open the machine. They will then tally the transaction and once they find the extra money in the machine they will credit it back to your account and you will be notified.
Ok. So what time are they coming?
Oh Sorry Encik Hazim, this will take 3 to 7 working days.
You're kidding
Encik Hazim, this will take 3 to 7 working days.
So what am I suppose to eat for the next 3 days at least?
I'm sorry Encik Hazim thats all I can do for you now.
Can you get the technician to come out here now?
I'm sorry Encik Hazim but we cant do that. This involves security and the technician so they can only help when the machine is serviced.
So are you telling me that this machine will be out of service for the next 3 to 7 days??
No, the technician will probably come by tomorrow or day after.
So It could be as soon as tomorrow la?
Encik Hazim, this will take 3 to 7 days.
I know you said that already. But if the machine is going to be opened tomorrow I can get my cash then right?
Sorry En. Hazim, but these cases take 3 to 7 days.
And there is no compensation?
No Sir. Sorry
Fuckup Gila
Sorry Sir?
I said thats a bummer. So what am I supposed to do now?
Im sorry Encik Hazim, but theres nothing anyone can do but wait the 3 to 7 days
Yeah yeah I know. Stupid system thats all I can say. Well oklah. Nothing else to do right? All because your stupid machine died on me right?
Is there anything else I can do for you Encik Hazim?
Obviously not right?
Thank you for calling Mayb...(HUNG UP)
Fuckin Maybank I swear to God. Although they're a one stop solution for a lot of stuff. This ices the cake and makes the whole thing rotten. My money better turn up or I'll find Zura and shove her head up her ass.
Here goes a boring money-less weekend....
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
"Blogs are for singles"
"Blogs are for singles!" Yup. That's what he said. And I think Lock was on the ball with that one. I have to agree, that the only time I feel having a blog is not too lame and obnoxious is when I'm single. Like right now. Kalau tak.. haram nak nampak blogspot. I don't even read blogs whenever I was in a relationship. Hell, I was barely even online.
So what does that mean really? Does that mean that you are really not yourself when you are attached to another person? That you somehow change who you really are just so that you can adapt to the relationship? An adaptation that you deemed necessary upon yourself just so that you can feel loved by someone else? If that's the case then we're screwed aren't we?
I don't think so. It's just time. Time is actually the determining factor of whether or not you are able to reflect upon yourself. And by reflecting I mean blogging (or journalling if not blogging.. or whatever the heck you want to call it) My point is that it all boils down to time. Obviously, when you're in a relationship, you don't really have that much time to waste wandering around in cyberspace. Only quick pitstops to check your personal email, then swoosh, you're off on your next date. But the lack of time doesn't necessarily have to be a repercussion of being in a relationship.
I am not in a relationship right now, and yet I find that there's hardly enough time for me to blog. Hell, I don't even have enough time to check my Gmail nowadays. I'm too busy with work that I don't even have enough 'ME' time! But then again, the reason I am able to be working that hard without being too bothered by it is because of the fact that I am single...
... So I guess he is right... now that it has come full circle back to where we started i.e. SINGLE, I guess Ihe is right. Blogs are pretty much for singles.
Not that I hate being single, of course. I think I'm enjoying the moment for now. Not much to think about in terms of personal life which gives my modest brain ample room to occupy with work stuff. Boring, maybe, but at least its useful. And this causes me to thank God much more for making me be so passionate and interested in my job!
OK It's not all about me. Friends of mine who were in a relationship together for abt a year and a half recently broke up, so I just wanna say sorry for u guys. Maybe its better this way and you'll find better avenues later.
Then another friend pretty much got back together with her weird ass ex dude for umpteenth time. I don't know if its such a good idea but I'm happy for you guys and try to make this one last a bit longer yeah (a month and a half - or a plate of nasgor for me)
Nasgor.. Jakarta... Nice. I forgot to mention that all the photos of my Singapore Jakarta Bandung Nasgor Tour 2008 have been posted on my FB. Do feel free to browse. Since pictures say it all, I dont think I have to give you a narration of the whole trip. Just view the photos and let them do the talking.
Next trip in the planning phase is Bangkok Somewhere around the 12th-14th. However, I might have to been in BKI for that whole week for work, so I guess its either of the two. Then after that, there's probably gonna be a Phuket trip lying around somewhere end of March. I'm also interested in getting a Perhentian/Redang trip going for the KRC club either in early April or sometime close. Will have to check the books, cuz I might be in Hamburg early April. Fuh busy busy busy.
Will keep everyone updated.
"So I heard you've been having food poisoning eh?"
"ye la boss. It's really bad right now"
"You should get those chikit teck aun pills u know"
"dah. I finished a bottle already"
"Hehehe. Tu la. U look pale anyway."
"Yeah but our smart doctor tak kasi MC, I did mention it but I think she didn't hear me so I'm gonna stop by her clinic aga.."
"Yeah so anyway, the LOPA and UA reports ye, I want it by 5PM"
"ok" (fuck)
Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu
Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu
Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu
Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu
-Afgan
So what does that mean really? Does that mean that you are really not yourself when you are attached to another person? That you somehow change who you really are just so that you can adapt to the relationship? An adaptation that you deemed necessary upon yourself just so that you can feel loved by someone else? If that's the case then we're screwed aren't we?
I don't think so. It's just time. Time is actually the determining factor of whether or not you are able to reflect upon yourself. And by reflecting I mean blogging (or journalling if not blogging.. or whatever the heck you want to call it) My point is that it all boils down to time. Obviously, when you're in a relationship, you don't really have that much time to waste wandering around in cyberspace. Only quick pitstops to check your personal email, then swoosh, you're off on your next date. But the lack of time doesn't necessarily have to be a repercussion of being in a relationship.
I am not in a relationship right now, and yet I find that there's hardly enough time for me to blog. Hell, I don't even have enough time to check my Gmail nowadays. I'm too busy with work that I don't even have enough 'ME' time! But then again, the reason I am able to be working that hard without being too bothered by it is because of the fact that I am single...
... So I guess he is right... now that it has come full circle back to where we started i.e. SINGLE, I guess Ihe is right. Blogs are pretty much for singles.
Not that I hate being single, of course. I think I'm enjoying the moment for now. Not much to think about in terms of personal life which gives my modest brain ample room to occupy with work stuff. Boring, maybe, but at least its useful. And this causes me to thank God much more for making me be so passionate and interested in my job!
OK It's not all about me. Friends of mine who were in a relationship together for abt a year and a half recently broke up, so I just wanna say sorry for u guys. Maybe its better this way and you'll find better avenues later.
Then another friend pretty much got back together with her weird ass ex dude for umpteenth time. I don't know if its such a good idea but I'm happy for you guys and try to make this one last a bit longer yeah (a month and a half - or a plate of nasgor for me)
Nasgor.. Jakarta... Nice. I forgot to mention that all the photos of my Singapore Jakarta Bandung Nasgor Tour 2008 have been posted on my FB. Do feel free to browse. Since pictures say it all, I dont think I have to give you a narration of the whole trip. Just view the photos and let them do the talking.
Next trip in the planning phase is Bangkok Somewhere around the 12th-14th. However, I might have to been in BKI for that whole week for work, so I guess its either of the two. Then after that, there's probably gonna be a Phuket trip lying around somewhere end of March. I'm also interested in getting a Perhentian/Redang trip going for the KRC club either in early April or sometime close. Will have to check the books, cuz I might be in Hamburg early April. Fuh busy busy busy.
Will keep everyone updated.
"So I heard you've been having food poisoning eh?"
"ye la boss. It's really bad right now"
"You should get those chikit teck aun pills u know"
"dah. I finished a bottle already"
"Hehehe. Tu la. U look pale anyway."
"Yeah but our smart doctor tak kasi MC, I did mention it but I think she didn't hear me so I'm gonna stop by her clinic aga.."
"Yeah so anyway, the LOPA and UA reports ye, I want it by 5PM"
"ok" (fuck)
Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu
Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu
Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu
Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu
-Afgan
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Feeling good...
Having just arrived from CGK, I am feeling extremely excited, refreshed and rejuvenated. The Singapore-Jakarta "NasGor" Tour 2008 proved to be the best trip I have taken in years. A complete write up will be coming up with a special introduction and endorsement for one of the best resorts in Indonesia. Watch out for that one coming soon.
On a more bitter note, I am supposed to be on leave tomorrow but unfortunately I have been called back for an important meeting tomorrow in KLIA. This sucks a.s.s.
Travelling is awesome. Period. Will be doing more of this.
And, I think, with some amount of doubt but not too much, I think, I am at peace.....
Later.
On a more bitter note, I am supposed to be on leave tomorrow but unfortunately I have been called back for an important meeting tomorrow in KLIA. This sucks a.s.s.
Travelling is awesome. Period. Will be doing more of this.
And, I think, with some amount of doubt but not too much, I think, I am at peace.....
Later.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
SAD day
No it's not a sad day. As many of you may know, today has been designated as SAD day = Singles Awareness Day. I dont know what it means for sure, but if i were to guess, I think its a day for us singles to celebrate being single. I'm also not sure if this is day is actually for real, or if it was a fad created by Hitz.fm. I learnt of this day through the hilarious Morning Crew team of Rudy and Junior. (Kudos to you guys for an awesome V day morning show. It really helped me go through the rest of the day. hahaha funnyeehh)
So yeah, 14th Feb came and went. Again. Second year in a row. 2 years ago on that day, I would have never imagined that the next two v days would be spent alone, considering that I was at the peak and happiest part of my life then. But, with the beautiful and mysterious way this life goes, it turns out that the unexpected happened and things have definitely unfolded the way I never thought it would be. Amazing.
After spending two v days doing pretty much nothing, I am slowly coming to a conclusion that there is really no point in celebrating the v. I used to be one of 'those' but now no more. This, in no way, has anything to do with religious and moral values, of course. It's more of a principle kind of thing. Sure, it's common to hear single people bitch about v day, but I think, if I were ever to be in a relationship in the near or far future, one thing I would change is celebrating the v. In fact, I think I'm no longer acknowledging it. I dont hate it. I still send out wishes to everyone who celebrates it. I just dont think I'll be one of them from now on.
My argument will not be the usual "why would you need a special day to celebrate love when it should be done all the time", but rather its a waste of money, effort and time. Especially time. Every freaking couple wants to go out on V day hence causing a massive, painful, fucked up traffic jam that's even worse than new year's eve. All the highways and restaurants and bars and clubs and chill-joints and whatever else is filled up with couples who fall prey to the commercialized concept of the V. Last year it took me more than an hour to reach home because of these idiots. This year I learnt my lesson and stayed in the office till late. Sounds lame I know, but at least I reached home in 15 minutes while the lovey dovey doofuses were busy having their 500-ringgit dinners. Don't get me started about the ridiculous prices of everything on that day. Bodoh.
I can't deny that I was one of them. One of those who jam up the roads and succumb to the devilish enticements of the bloodsucking establishments that are trying their best to make a quick buck on v days. And boy did I splurge. No more, dude. No regrets, of course, but I'm done with that shit. Been there done that and now, i know better.
Now, I treat it as any other day. Last year, on v day, i chilled with my buddies in my pool and later for an awesome dinner, burning each other throughout. This year, i worked, to accomodate the approaching deadlines and piled-up to-dos. So instead of slaving over a day (v) that no one really knows where it came from, I actually end up having more fun. Last year's chilled out pool/loser bash will be well remembered. This year, well,at least working will help my future kan?
Of course, on a day when everyone celebrates their love ones, I tend to think about my past and what's going to happen to me... and tho it looks kind of bleak.... ehh what the fuck.. ape nak jadi jadi lah. Janji duit ade, makan cukup, lawak lebih, and party over and over and over. (kononnye la. blakang kalu stuck at home main PS2 or random guitar sessions or books.. but then again, there's always KRC, bitch!!!)
Going out of topic as an end note, I'd like to share with the small little world that visits this blog (mungkin sorang saje? thanks for your support azah - haha) a very useful quote that will help you through anything that happens. Believe you me, it has done wonders to calm me down anytime shit hits the fan.
"Things are never as bad as they seem."
Harper Lee, spoken by character Miss Maudie, To Kill A Mockingbird
Stay cool. And enjoy the weekend. SIN, CGK! HERE I COME!
Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say
only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then it's time you spoke up too
So yeah, 14th Feb came and went. Again. Second year in a row. 2 years ago on that day, I would have never imagined that the next two v days would be spent alone, considering that I was at the peak and happiest part of my life then. But, with the beautiful and mysterious way this life goes, it turns out that the unexpected happened and things have definitely unfolded the way I never thought it would be. Amazing.
After spending two v days doing pretty much nothing, I am slowly coming to a conclusion that there is really no point in celebrating the v. I used to be one of 'those' but now no more. This, in no way, has anything to do with religious and moral values, of course. It's more of a principle kind of thing. Sure, it's common to hear single people bitch about v day, but I think, if I were ever to be in a relationship in the near or far future, one thing I would change is celebrating the v. In fact, I think I'm no longer acknowledging it. I dont hate it. I still send out wishes to everyone who celebrates it. I just dont think I'll be one of them from now on.
My argument will not be the usual "why would you need a special day to celebrate love when it should be done all the time", but rather its a waste of money, effort and time. Especially time. Every freaking couple wants to go out on V day hence causing a massive, painful, fucked up traffic jam that's even worse than new year's eve. All the highways and restaurants and bars and clubs and chill-joints and whatever else is filled up with couples who fall prey to the commercialized concept of the V. Last year it took me more than an hour to reach home because of these idiots. This year I learnt my lesson and stayed in the office till late. Sounds lame I know, but at least I reached home in 15 minutes while the lovey dovey doofuses were busy having their 500-ringgit dinners. Don't get me started about the ridiculous prices of everything on that day. Bodoh.
I can't deny that I was one of them. One of those who jam up the roads and succumb to the devilish enticements of the bloodsucking establishments that are trying their best to make a quick buck on v days. And boy did I splurge. No more, dude. No regrets, of course, but I'm done with that shit. Been there done that and now, i know better.
Now, I treat it as any other day. Last year, on v day, i chilled with my buddies in my pool and later for an awesome dinner, burning each other throughout. This year, i worked, to accomodate the approaching deadlines and piled-up to-dos. So instead of slaving over a day (v) that no one really knows where it came from, I actually end up having more fun. Last year's chilled out pool/loser bash will be well remembered. This year, well,at least working will help my future kan?
Of course, on a day when everyone celebrates their love ones, I tend to think about my past and what's going to happen to me... and tho it looks kind of bleak.... ehh what the fuck.. ape nak jadi jadi lah. Janji duit ade, makan cukup, lawak lebih, and party over and over and over. (kononnye la. blakang kalu stuck at home main PS2 or random guitar sessions or books.. but then again, there's always KRC, bitch!!!)
Going out of topic as an end note, I'd like to share with the small little world that visits this blog (mungkin sorang saje? thanks for your support azah - haha) a very useful quote that will help you through anything that happens. Believe you me, it has done wonders to calm me down anytime shit hits the fan.
"Things are never as bad as they seem."
Harper Lee, spoken by character Miss Maudie, To Kill A Mockingbird
Stay cool. And enjoy the weekend. SIN, CGK! HERE I COME!
Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say
only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then it's time you spoke up too
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
I have decided that I want a new digital camera.
After the tragic and mysterious dissapearance of my trusty 4-year-old 3.2 megapixel Canon (God strike thunder to the dickhead who took it), the time has now come for me to impart my mediocre scenery capturing skills via a new digital friend.
Although I read stuff magazine quite adamantly, I am nowhere near to being a techie or a gadgeteer. Thus, I don't know whats latest in the market and what should be the accurate street price for one. All I know is I need a new camera.
So as part of my new "analytical" approach to online journalling (if there is such a word), I have decided to list down some of the interesting looking ones and compare their specs, although most of the jargon sounds like Swahili to me. Note to self: You're not much of a photographer so don't be too ambitios with the specs. Something simple, point and shoot, sleek and above 6 megapixels will do.
1. Panasonic Lumix DMC-FX33
Okay this bad boy looks pretty good although it is slightly over my budget (MSRP RM1299). But it looks damn good with the black body and silver accents. 8.1mps and it comes with all the standard stuff that you would find in most point-and-shoot digicams nowadays. 3.6x digital zoom and 4x optical is pretty standard for that price i guess. Screen is 2.5" and storage utilizes Built-in Memory, SD Memory Card, SDHC Memory Card, MultiMediaCard. Tempting, but mainly because of how it looks!
2. Sony Cyber-Shot DSC-W55/B
Alrite, this badass-looking Sony comes slightly cheaper at MSRP RM899 although that accounts for it snapping pictures at only 7.1mps compared to the Lumix. But then again, I'm not much of a photographer so I don't really think I'll see the difference. Still comes with a 2.5" screen although it can go only 3x optical (and 6x digital which doesn't really do much for the picture quality... err.. or so I think). The rest is yada yada yada whatever. Of course Sony won't part ways with their storage partner; Memory Stick MS Duo MS PRO Duo.
3. Nikon Coolpix L18
Okay so Nikon released the sexy L18 about 2 weeks ago and it's been quite a relief to see them moving on from their usual side-hump design to a more sleeker look. Kan smart tu... definitely worth for me to go take a look at the shops. No price yet online but I'm guessing its around the 1300 vicinity. Probably more considering they managed to squeeze in a 3 inch LCD into this 125-g sweetness. 8.1mps. Definitely worth a visit to the camera store. Let's just hope the price wont make me scoff with disgust.
4. Canon Digital IXUS 75
Although it doesn't come in black, I can't resist these new slim 7.1mps from Canon. Not to mention the mere fact of Canon's superior durability and quality. (my conviction after seeing my previous Canon went from the top of Mount Olympic all the way to beneath Sungai Ulu Yam - and it still worked). 3 inch screen and opticals and the rest are pretty much similar to average. Too bad it doesnt come in black though. But knowing that it's a Canon, I won't go wrong.
I got more Canons to analyze but I'm too tired now.
More more more!!! There're so many more to look at! Olympus especially. Adoi. Why la I start surfing at midnite... stupid blog. Ok I'm too tired to go through the rest now, maybe tomorrow. But if there's anyone reading this and got some suggestions do let me know. Anything goes as long as its below 1200 and shiny metallic black! Wuhu!
I know its been a long time,
I know I did you wrong,
I know the fault was mine,
I knew it all along,
But now I can't seem to get you out of my head
Although its been quite a while that we quit.
I hope its nothing. Or is my mind trying to tell me something...
After the tragic and mysterious dissapearance of my trusty 4-year-old 3.2 megapixel Canon (God strike thunder to the dickhead who took it), the time has now come for me to impart my mediocre scenery capturing skills via a new digital friend.
Although I read stuff magazine quite adamantly, I am nowhere near to being a techie or a gadgeteer. Thus, I don't know whats latest in the market and what should be the accurate street price for one. All I know is I need a new camera.
So as part of my new "analytical" approach to online journalling (if there is such a word), I have decided to list down some of the interesting looking ones and compare their specs, although most of the jargon sounds like Swahili to me. Note to self: You're not much of a photographer so don't be too ambitios with the specs. Something simple, point and shoot, sleek and above 6 megapixels will do.
1. Panasonic Lumix DMC-FX33
Okay this bad boy looks pretty good although it is slightly over my budget (MSRP RM1299). But it looks damn good with the black body and silver accents. 8.1mps and it comes with all the standard stuff that you would find in most point-and-shoot digicams nowadays. 3.6x digital zoom and 4x optical is pretty standard for that price i guess. Screen is 2.5" and storage utilizes Built-in Memory, SD Memory Card, SDHC Memory Card, MultiMediaCard. Tempting, but mainly because of how it looks!
2. Sony Cyber-Shot DSC-W55/B
Alrite, this badass-looking Sony comes slightly cheaper at MSRP RM899 although that accounts for it snapping pictures at only 7.1mps compared to the Lumix. But then again, I'm not much of a photographer so I don't really think I'll see the difference. Still comes with a 2.5" screen although it can go only 3x optical (and 6x digital which doesn't really do much for the picture quality... err.. or so I think). The rest is yada yada yada whatever. Of course Sony won't part ways with their storage partner; Memory Stick MS Duo MS PRO Duo.
3. Nikon Coolpix L18
Okay so Nikon released the sexy L18 about 2 weeks ago and it's been quite a relief to see them moving on from their usual side-hump design to a more sleeker look. Kan smart tu... definitely worth for me to go take a look at the shops. No price yet online but I'm guessing its around the 1300 vicinity. Probably more considering they managed to squeeze in a 3 inch LCD into this 125-g sweetness. 8.1mps. Definitely worth a visit to the camera store. Let's just hope the price wont make me scoff with disgust.
4. Canon Digital IXUS 75
Although it doesn't come in black, I can't resist these new slim 7.1mps from Canon. Not to mention the mere fact of Canon's superior durability and quality. (my conviction after seeing my previous Canon went from the top of Mount Olympic all the way to beneath Sungai Ulu Yam - and it still worked). 3 inch screen and opticals and the rest are pretty much similar to average. Too bad it doesnt come in black though. But knowing that it's a Canon, I won't go wrong.
I got more Canons to analyze but I'm too tired now.
More more more!!! There're so many more to look at! Olympus especially. Adoi. Why la I start surfing at midnite... stupid blog. Ok I'm too tired to go through the rest now, maybe tomorrow. But if there's anyone reading this and got some suggestions do let me know. Anything goes as long as its below 1200 and shiny metallic black! Wuhu!
I know its been a long time,
I know I did you wrong,
I know the fault was mine,
I knew it all along,
But now I can't seem to get you out of my head
Although its been quite a while that we quit.
I hope its nothing. Or is my mind trying to tell me something...
Monday, February 11, 2008
It's been a while...
Yeah. It's been a while....
I haven't been blogging for almost a year now and suddenly, for some reason that goes beyond my comprehension, I feel the suddent itch to start again. Probably I've been occupying myself too much before. Or probably I was too busy riding through the highs and lows of my life that I lost touch with the concept of blogging; the one medium for me to let it all out for the world to see (or not, you know, whatever)
Anyway, I can't deny that on the past few occasions of our usual lepakking, my buddies and I kept on arriving on the topic of blogs. And of course, along with it comes the occasional 'burns' of my previous undertaking to write, especially during my darker days (in college) where I wasted so much time moaning and nagging about something that, at the end of the day, turned out to be one of, if not the worst, mistakes of my life. I tend to reminisce those days and think about how stupid I was to shutdown the blog without even saving the entries. It would have made excellent 'burn' material if the guys were to find it, or maybe, and even better, if i were to open it 40 years down the road and let my grandchildren burn me then.
But this time around, I want to try to keep things more analytical, or maybe even parodical to properly reflect my maturity level, which hopefully has gone beyond the "Fuck You Bitch!" and "I think I am cursed hence I'm unhappy" - mentality(yeah.. right). Although, don't be surprised if my usual deep and pointless poetry crawls out of this screen every once in a while.
But truly, maybe this itch to start typing again is the fruit of my last relationship which pretty much went down the drain as soon as it started. It might very well be, as it took me less than my typical shitting session to realize that she was the worst mistake. Yes. The worst. And come to think of it, it took me about 20 minutes to get over the shock of how it ended, and it has returned me to my usual selfish asshole self, well, at least for the time-being, until another lass comes around and I start putting on the facade of "how we are made for each other". (Thus thou have to cometh with me to my bed)
Hah! I wish. No, that was pure exaggeration. I'm obviously not that kind of person. At least I think I'm not. Except for when I have to be. Maybe. Well come to think of it.. No.. wait.... Anyway.
Yeah. Well, there's nothing much to say I guess. Ups and downs are the norm for everyone. I can see that pretty clearly now, although there are some of my associates out there who seem to not be bothered about the downs at all. I'm amazed at that and truly I salute you guys. It's quite incredible to see how drama-less life can be when you don't let the petty stuff bother you. I'm slowly learning that, and I have my funny and mostly carefree friends (and of late, a Godlike brother) to thank for that. Now that I'm writing all this down, I think I'm doing okay with my life. Work's good although the money sucks. Family's doing okay. Friends are still friends though some are not around for the moment. But on top of it all, the daily grind keeps me going; keep everything hard; work, play, party, love and.. well you know the other one.
Love, yeah. Sort of a bullshit concept for me right now. After a few stints with the so-called 'ones', I have decided that relationships are not the thing for me at the moment. I got other more important things to do which I shall not dwell on this time. I just simply don't have the energy to go through the pain of being in a relationship right now. I've had a few miraculously beautiful ones, a few mediocre yet ironically amusing ones, and of course, not to frogget, the fuck-ups which I shall touch on a bit later.
The beautiful ones, I will always cherish, and silently hope that one fine day, each of them will reveal and give themselves to me. No wait, I meant one of them err... and by reveal and give, i subconciously meant the relationship and not the person. Fuck it. What I'm trying to say is that, I cherish those that meant something. And until today they still do, and who knows, one day, maybe what's meant to happen will happen (gggiilllaababehhh)
The mediocre flings... well, they're mediocre.
And the fuckups, ah... the fuckups. Thank you fuckups for making me who I am today. Cuz there was just barely enough hatred in me to survive, but thanks to you bitches, my hatred level is perfect! I mean seriously, what would I do without you? What would life be without you? My dear fuckups, thank you for being you. Stay the same, don't ever change k? Cuz you're God's gift to us human kind. We can't all be perfect. We need fuckups like you to fuck it up. And by staying the same, you will always be fucked up and I hope your fucked up till you die. Maybe you should die while being fucked? That would make it perfect. :-)
Okay enough hatred. I think I've gone too far for an opening entry. So now I have a blog and at least I can pretend to be busy when I am trying to ignore work. Yay!
Boys and Girls, welcome to Sho's Flo. A place for me to vent. And hopefully, a place for you to be entertained. I'm not very familiar to this blog site so I'll try to add fun shit here and there. Then all you people can put your own shit here. Stay calm y'all.
Song of the week has got to be...
SOULDJA BOY UP IN THAT HOE!
WATCH ME RIDE AND WATCH ME ROLL
WATCH ME CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY AND SUPERMAAAAAAAAAAAN THAT HOE
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME!!!
krcunts - we gotta scream out this song one last time dawgs.
I haven't been blogging for almost a year now and suddenly, for some reason that goes beyond my comprehension, I feel the suddent itch to start again. Probably I've been occupying myself too much before. Or probably I was too busy riding through the highs and lows of my life that I lost touch with the concept of blogging; the one medium for me to let it all out for the world to see (or not, you know, whatever)
Anyway, I can't deny that on the past few occasions of our usual lepakking, my buddies and I kept on arriving on the topic of blogs. And of course, along with it comes the occasional 'burns' of my previous undertaking to write, especially during my darker days (in college) where I wasted so much time moaning and nagging about something that, at the end of the day, turned out to be one of, if not the worst, mistakes of my life. I tend to reminisce those days and think about how stupid I was to shutdown the blog without even saving the entries. It would have made excellent 'burn' material if the guys were to find it, or maybe, and even better, if i were to open it 40 years down the road and let my grandchildren burn me then.
But this time around, I want to try to keep things more analytical, or maybe even parodical to properly reflect my maturity level, which hopefully has gone beyond the "Fuck You Bitch!" and "I think I am cursed hence I'm unhappy" - mentality(yeah.. right). Although, don't be surprised if my usual deep and pointless poetry crawls out of this screen every once in a while.
But truly, maybe this itch to start typing again is the fruit of my last relationship which pretty much went down the drain as soon as it started. It might very well be, as it took me less than my typical shitting session to realize that she was the worst mistake. Yes. The worst. And come to think of it, it took me about 20 minutes to get over the shock of how it ended, and it has returned me to my usual selfish asshole self, well, at least for the time-being, until another lass comes around and I start putting on the facade of "how we are made for each other". (Thus thou have to cometh with me to my bed)
Hah! I wish. No, that was pure exaggeration. I'm obviously not that kind of person. At least I think I'm not. Except for when I have to be. Maybe. Well come to think of it.. No.. wait.... Anyway.
Yeah. Well, there's nothing much to say I guess. Ups and downs are the norm for everyone. I can see that pretty clearly now, although there are some of my associates out there who seem to not be bothered about the downs at all. I'm amazed at that and truly I salute you guys. It's quite incredible to see how drama-less life can be when you don't let the petty stuff bother you. I'm slowly learning that, and I have my funny and mostly carefree friends (and of late, a Godlike brother) to thank for that. Now that I'm writing all this down, I think I'm doing okay with my life. Work's good although the money sucks. Family's doing okay. Friends are still friends though some are not around for the moment. But on top of it all, the daily grind keeps me going; keep everything hard; work, play, party, love and.. well you know the other one.
Love, yeah. Sort of a bullshit concept for me right now. After a few stints with the so-called 'ones', I have decided that relationships are not the thing for me at the moment. I got other more important things to do which I shall not dwell on this time. I just simply don't have the energy to go through the pain of being in a relationship right now. I've had a few miraculously beautiful ones, a few mediocre yet ironically amusing ones, and of course, not to frogget, the fuck-ups which I shall touch on a bit later.
The beautiful ones, I will always cherish, and silently hope that one fine day, each of them will reveal and give themselves to me. No wait, I meant one of them err... and by reveal and give, i subconciously meant the relationship and not the person. Fuck it. What I'm trying to say is that, I cherish those that meant something. And until today they still do, and who knows, one day, maybe what's meant to happen will happen (gggiilllaababehhh)
The mediocre flings... well, they're mediocre.
And the fuckups, ah... the fuckups. Thank you fuckups for making me who I am today. Cuz there was just barely enough hatred in me to survive, but thanks to you bitches, my hatred level is perfect! I mean seriously, what would I do without you? What would life be without you? My dear fuckups, thank you for being you. Stay the same, don't ever change k? Cuz you're God's gift to us human kind. We can't all be perfect. We need fuckups like you to fuck it up. And by staying the same, you will always be fucked up and I hope your fucked up till you die. Maybe you should die while being fucked? That would make it perfect. :-)
Okay enough hatred. I think I've gone too far for an opening entry. So now I have a blog and at least I can pretend to be busy when I am trying to ignore work. Yay!
Boys and Girls, welcome to Sho's Flo. A place for me to vent. And hopefully, a place for you to be entertained. I'm not very familiar to this blog site so I'll try to add fun shit here and there. Then all you people can put your own shit here. Stay calm y'all.
Song of the week has got to be...
SOULDJA BOY UP IN THAT HOE!
WATCH ME RIDE AND WATCH ME ROLL
WATCH ME CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY AND SUPERMAAAAAAAAAAAN THAT HOE
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME (YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU)
CRANK DAT SOULDJA BOY
NOW WATCH ME!!!
krcunts - we gotta scream out this song one last time dawgs.
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