PROJECT COMPLETE!!!

Finally. It's all done. Let's just hope it works. And the hiccups are mitigated. It's all up to the executioners now. And later, I will be laughing at management on the repercussions coming from the public disgust and dissatisfaction. (I'm talking about work).

Yes bro, JAKARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes I've been there before. Yes, there not much there. But it's fun. And I wanna get away. Woooohooooooooooo!!!!

Lets just hope I can catch a flight out.


See ya all Next Week!


oh, btw ---> Sudanization = Only porn influenced erection.

23rd April 2008, 745PM, The Curve.

As I sit here in Starbucks watching all the people go by, I cant help but think to myself how happy people seem to be. But are they really? It's amazing how humans can put up facades of being so happy, satisfied and content with him or herself without others really knowing if what they are feeling is genuine and real. We will never know. We can only imagine what they are truly feeling.

Which brings me to my never ending quest to determine what is the true meaning of happiness. To what extent is the definition of happiness varied when analyzed by different people. And.. (Anwar Ibrahim and Nurul Izzah just walked by - congrats?.. I guess). And will we ever come to one overall complete definition to be agreed upon by all?

Of course the question "what is happiness?" has been beaten down to death. It's a cliche question that can't get anymore cliched. There are so many ways to approach this question; socially, financially, emotionally and, of course, spiritually. No matter what the approach, I believe that the quest for the answer to this question will never come to an end for as long as humans exist.

Which brings me back to the purpose of my thought for today. It is not the definition or the answer to this question that I am talking about. But rather the ability humans to simply be happy. The ability to set aside all our worries, all our pain, all our sorrow, and all our fear, to enjoy, even the briefest of moments, to simply enjoy the moment of being alive, there and then in that particular point in time and space. Be it with a significant other, friends, family or alone, the ability of the human mind to compartmentalize thoughts and memory to provision a path for a simple joyous feeling to overwhelm the mind, body and soul, will truly remain an awesome, fantastic and absolutely mind-boggling mystery that us humans, the creatures that are actually subjected to this phenomenon, will never be able to solve.

God is truly great.

Haven't written in a while. Don't know what to write about really. Nothing much is going on.

Birthday came and went. No big deal there.

Political scene is still the same, and its slowly creeping up my annoyance ladder. Some people have actually moved on from the whole election drama and got on with life. Thank God for them. But most are still harping on the outcome of the elections. Still wondering why things are the way they are. Still trying to get others to talk about it. And still wanting more drama, as if the one we had wasn't sufficient to fulfill their needs.

So the ruling party lost more seats than usual. So what? Isn't that an acceptable outcome of an election in a so-called democratic country? What is the big deal? Why can't most of us deal with it and move on with our lives. It's not like we're undergoing a massive change or anything. The same people (well, almost) are still at the helm. Everything is still the same. One of the reader views on a major local daily yesterday criticized all this talk about resignation and what not. And that particular view was, if the ruling party had done so bad, why call for one person's resignation? The whole damn crew should resign and take responsibility for it, since it's such a big deal to them. I couldn't agree more with this.

I'm not gonna talk politics. It's not my thing. Well, at least not at the moment. I hate politics. I've seen it take the best out of people and give nothing back but sorrow. I've seen it lie. I've seen it cheat. I've seen it destroy one man, until there is really nothing left to live for.

Sure, I have my preference. And I have my reasons to have that preference. But I only think of it come election time. Once that is done, we're all the same. As long as the country remains stable, we shouldn't really worry, dwell or even talk about politics until the next election comes around. It's a waste of time. And with all the deceit, corruption and lies that surround it, politics will never end.

On a personal note, I am feeling like I am reaching a major turning point in my life. I don't exactly know what it is or which direction it will take me. But I know I am slowly changing. Deep inside it is as if I am reverting to my original self, returning to a person whom I was once before. I dont exactly know to what extent or in what manner. But I feel it. It feels like in the recent period of time, probably a year or two, I have not been myself. And now, that person is slowly seeping into my veins and returning me to the person I once was.

I don't really know if this so-called change is good or bad. It might be neither. But I hope it brings me benefit in one way or another. I guess only time can tell...


How far are we from the truth...
When truth seems far from being clear...
How clear are we on our purpose...
When our purpose recludes our eyes and ears...

How sure are we of our needs...
When our needs slowly dissapear...
How lost are we in this life...
When life seems to be out of steer...

How much of facts can we really tell....
When telling seems to be the hardest part...
How do we know we've past the end...
When our only chance is to go back to the start...

I hope everyone has a good weekend. Thanks for all the birthday wishes.

Why McLaren, Why?

Wow. The later turned out to be almost a week later.

Work
What a week it's been. Things seem to have really piled up while I was away. And some almost reached critical stage. I guess I got back at the right time. If it wasn't for trusted colleagues, work would have tumbled and crashed all over the place. Thanks guys and girls. But whatever it is, work is still work and there's still a lot to do for the new orders that were announced.

Personal Life
No comment.

Life in general
Good.

I faced killer conversations recently.

"are you not seeing anyone now?"
It was a yes or no question. Shit. I hate yes or no questions.
"no"
"since when?"
"since January"
Just a few phrases later, the conversation ended.

Another one with a different person started the same way, and continued further.
"...why?"
Damn. Why is it that as soon as I'm on a roll with the yes or no questions POW! I'm hit with an open one.
"i don't know. i guess i'm done with all that. i think i know what i want now."
"what is it that you want?"
"i know who my future lies with."
"so what are you going to do about it"
"there's nothing that i can do"
"so you're screwed"
"tight. And topped up with sealant"

Another one. With a more elderly person. In malay.
"haa la... akak ni dah tak tahan dah dengan perangai anak sedara akak tu. gedik sini sana. kepit manjang. so nak selamatkan diorang, family akak pun kawinkanla. senang. tapi masalahnya dua dua tu budak lagi. keje pun tak seberapa."
"nak buat camana kak. dah jodoh"
"hmmm ye la. banyak la ko boleh cakap. yang tak sepatutnya kahwin, nak cepat cepat. gopoh. tapi yang sepatutnya kawin. yang stable macam ko tu... ntah apa la ditunggunye".

....

burn.

Good to be home

I'm back! What an amazing week it's been. Will update more. Check out photos on facebook.

Now it's time for some Formula 1.

Later